tiz iz my blog. i can sae wateva i want. im here to express my feelings. & no one can stop me. im sad. therez no point talking to me cuz i dun feel lyk talking. im sorie but im juz not in e mood at all. he made me cry ytd. i suck. im not gd. i noe. dun let me b in e team. simple as tt. i swear i'll b much happier. he scolded me lyk fcuk. im a coward. im not strong enough. worst still, im not strong at all. i cry easily. i noe tt. but dun he evr blame me for tt cuz tts me, my personality. haish. he'll sae wateva he wants. i cant do anything evnthough itz hurtful. i dun deserve tt 3rd place medal. take it away frm me cuz i dun care. itz not important to me at all. he wanna see me giv all out till i die den hez happy wat. i must die on court no matter wat ritez. i must break my leg first ritez. fcuk off. cuz no matter wat, netball iz nvr a happy thing for me. it has nvr been & it will nvr b. im still stuck here cuz therez no way i can get out of it. ytd was e worst. telling ppl how i feel wont make any diff. so watz e point? i've said enough. im not asking for sympathy. im sorie i let e team down. im sorie im useless. im reali tired of crying. i'll try to b strong..
only faiz understands me best. he said i must try to forget bout it. i cant let it run through my mind. i must learn how to control my feelings. he'll wait till i stop crying & to see me smile agn. i hav to move on cuz i cant change anything. think of e gd memories & not e bad ones. treat it as a mistake & i must b strong. he wants e normal nurul back. haish. i'll try my best okaes. thanks for being there syg. i appreaciate it alot. hez e only one who cares. he made me feel betta. no one iz e same as him. thanks once agn, my dear. i love u. & no one can evr change tt.
sch tmr?
im not totally done wif my hw.
im totally not in e mood. haish.
GOODBYE. =((
